My big strong man passed over to a place of peace on Thursday afternoon.
I held Russell as he took his last breath and reassured him that our love would never grow old. We would have celebrated our 8th wedding anniversary on Tuesday – March 21.
The irony was we celebrated life with friends on the Saturday night by firing up our pizza oven, cooking a protein medley of Salmon, Lamb and Pork Belly. Little did we know that this would be Russell’s last meal.
On Sunday morning, Russell woke up feeling like he was going to die, which upon reflection I realised had been happening all week. Despite this, we went to Louis’s school trip to the art gallery on Thursday and watched him belt it out at cricket on Friday night.
Through living in the moment during his two years of suffering, Russell denied his body the chance to catch up. But on Tuesday he told me it had been the worst day of his life and he wanted to just go to sleep.
Russell remained in control the whole time, directing me as to what he needed. He never left our bed so we cried, cuddled, read books, watched videos to hear the sound of his voice and stayed as a family.
Having him home was incredibly comforting. It was important to me that he wasn’t alone.
Yesterday morning before Russell’s cremation we placed him in a white coffin that had personal messages and the kids pictures. Our reflections created a place of peace.
Join us to celebrate Russell’s life on Thursday at 1pm at the New Plymouth Sailing Club at Ngamotu Beach. There will be a bar on the beach, sheep on the spit and live music – Adam will be playing The Waterside.
As Russell would say, hold each other tight as love will get you through.